Bye For Now

Granny,
I have never written you a letter before. You have always been a phone call away. But, now you are where I can't call and talk to you, or bring something by the house for you. I have so many wonderful memories and not even one bad one. You basically raised me until I started kindergarten, and even after I would play sick so I could come and stay with you. I will never forget all the cornbread, chocolate milk, cheese and pickles you always had ready for me at all times. I will never forget you letting me go outside and crank that huge Cadillac so it could warm up. I will never forget you letting me beat the crap out of that old piece of junk bean bag. I will never forget you running down the driveway when I tried to drive granddaddy's car. I will never forget the time I broke my arm in your neighbors yard and you coming to take care of me. I will never forget you fixing me glasses of water while I cut the grass. I will never forget you scratching my back until I fell asleep. I will never forget the 29 years you put up with me.

Now you are gone. But I am not as sad as I thought I would be. I think it bothered me more to watch you struggle and fight the devils attack on your body. Don't get me wrong, I miss you a whole lot, but I will see you again someday. I hope things are everything you expected them to be in heaven. The streets of gold, the singing, the pearly gates, I hope they are more amazing than you imagined. I just wish I had an ounce of your faith. I wish we all did.

Don't worry about grandaddy. We will watch after him. He will get his health back and start driving again. We will keep him busy. Dad and Steve are OK too, so are mom, Mandi, and Trish. We will all be OK. I am sorry you had to go through all of that. I am sorry you had to get sick and not be able to do the things you were used to doing.

I love you and I will miss you, but I will see you again someday. Tell everybody I said hi and tell Jesus I am trying.

Love always,
Nathan